What I know

I know that...

I love the Lord and His Church.

I love my husband with all my heart and we have a marriage made in Heaven.

I love my children and do everything that I can to help them. I want them to be beautiful, bright, kind girls who know and love the Lord and His Church.

I could not get by without the loving support of my family, especially my mom and dad who have never let me down.

I know that God loves me and will provide for me, He always has. But, it continues to be the things that I don't know that are really getting to me...

How do I ensure that I'm doing everything "right" as a parent?

How do I instill a love for the Catholic Church in my children so they never leave?

When will we be able to move closer to family, church, and school for the girls?

But in particular, will we ever be able to have more children? What is God's plan for our family? These questions weigh me down more than I ever dreamed was possible. Sometimes the grief of infertility overwhelms me. (I don't even like to say the word!)

I believe that God will provide for me...but what if His plan isn't the same as mine? And how do I conform my will to His?

I want to. I know that I want to do God's will. That I want to happily, peacefully, follow my Lord wherever He takes me.

So, that will be my new prayer. That the Lord would conform my heart to His.

Make me more like you, Lord.